as sad (or gross) as this is, i didnt leave the house all weekend..
so you can imagine the shock i experienced as i ventured out into the blistering cold this morning.. (yea, i exaggerate a little sometimes.. but it WAS cold!) ..it was the last time i would have to get up for a stats lecture, so i felt i should go ... my fridge is once again running low or just plain lacking in several necessitites, but because i'm a big baby and didnt want to go back out into the cold, i opted for a nap in my warm bed at home before jazz... laziness got the better of me, and i loved the nap.. but i'll regret that in the next few days when i discover i have nothing to eat ..lol .. unfortunately for me, jazz ended up being quite the bummer, as i realized just how much i need to learn for this exam  true to exam form, the library was packed.. i couldnt get a desk at my usual spot, so i had to go to a corner where there were no windows.. several semi-productive hours later, i walked by a window to see the campus completely covered in a blanket of white.. it was so beautiful.. from that moment on, people who saw me probably referred to me as that idiot girl with the huge smile on her face walking through the snow. haha.. it was one of those times where everything kind of melted away, and for a brief moment, there was nothing weighing down on me.. for the first time in a while, my heart was completely happy. one of my bestfriends asks me every year, "what is it about snow that makes you so happy?" -- and i still cant give her a straight answer. just look out your window and tell me that what you're seeing isnt gorgeous. back when maddog and billie still worked at kiss92, i'd wake up to their morning show. one day in particular, they were discussing things that make people happy... and they took a minute to write down all the things that could make them smile. i think their goal was ten things on that list... later that day i made my own list and came up with some ridiculous number just over thirty.. they were all simple things; snow was one of them  anyways, now the snow's fallen, i really, really want to go play ...why must school ruin all the fun! my family put up the tree at home this weekend ...i made my sister take a picture of it ..i dont care if looks the same as it did last year! i still want to see it!
 all it needs is some presents underneath it ;)
exciting stuff happening over the break perhaps? i'm not going to let myself get too excited or i'll be very disappointed if things dont follow through.. but! i dont see why they wouldnt... either way, i'm going to leave it at this for now. haha
i like that i'm mad at you. i like that i when i talk to you now, i really just want to hurt you... i like it cause it means i'm healing and that you're starting to disappear for a while. yay me!
hi gladys =) |